One Year Later - Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Well, I actually made it! Thank God, it has been one year since my operation. The strange thing is that I did not feel like celebrating at all. Frankly, I found myself feeling strangely emotional. It was as though I was re-living the day one more time. I wanted to talk about it to someone so I reminded Marilyn what day it was. The only problem was that I broke down and cried as I did. The crying turned to sobbing as some unknown dam of emotions from deep inside seemed to be unleashed. I really did not understand why since it was supposed to be a day for celebration, not tears. Marilyn explained that even though the experience had ended, it did not change the fact that it was a very scary time and full of conflicting emotions. Actually, the tears were a relief, so I let them flow until they stopped. We did go out to dinner. Even though the meal was something of a disappointment, it still felt good to celebrate the end of a very long and challenging (I would rather describe it as hellish) year.