Final Approach - Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Well, it is almost upon me. Tomorrow I will have my last chemo treatment. It amazes me when I remember that people said, while I was still in the decision-making process regarding chemo, that it would be over before I knew it and that I would do well. In fact, some of those around me seemed to think I should be enthusiastic about such a wonderful opportunity! The problem was, at that point, I felt like I had just been sentenced to an all expense paid trip to Auschwitz and that I was the only one who realized it. You may wonder why I would perceive it that way. Well, first there was the surgery, then came the installation of the port. Next was the chemo, which in my mind was the equivalent of poison. The final touch will be the radiation, or nuclear exposure. So I faced the prospect of being cut, poisoned, then burned. It is an understatement to say I was not happy at the prospect. However, now that I am almost finished this segment, it really did go by quickly and, with all things considered, I actually have done well. So I have to admit that my friends and family were correct. However, I am very glad this portion is almost over and I never, ever, ever want to do this again!